If God brings you to it, He will bring you trough it. Trust Him.
I believe there is a certain madness to the night, a quiet that isn’t actually comforting but haunting. Everything that I’ve tried to push aside during the day — every small worry, every buried fear, missed deadlines, future lifes — suddenly rises like ghosts in the dark. They decide the time to have a party in my head at midnight.
It starts with a single thought and before I know it, it will be an endless thoughts that crashes over me, making me question everything — my life, my purpose — all over again.
I just lie there in the dead silence, wide awake, staring at the ceiling as if it holds some answers for all of my worries. But let’s be real, it doesn’t.
And stressing over it all at 2 am is a losing game.
The truth is, life will always come at me and bring wave after wave of things beyond my control. Some days, I manage to ride the wave and the other days, I knocked under and crushed by the weight of it all.
Lying here in the dark and replaying everything on a loop doesn’t change a thing or make me feel any better — it only deepens the emptiness, leaving me feeling even more hollow.
There’s this relentless feeling that I should have it all figured out by now, as if my future depends on these sleepless nights and endless overthinking. It’s a strange pride, convincing me that if I push myself into every painful corner of my mind, I might uncover some hidden answer, something that will make everything fall into place. But deep down, I know life isn’t that generous. It doesn’t offer easy answers just because we’re desperate to find them.
But the thing is, life isn’t about answering every question or solving every problem. Sometimes, it’s simply about staying grounded and trusting that things will work out, even if they’re too tangled to straighten out right now. I don’t have to fix everything in this moment.
I’m reminded that having faith means trusting God won’t leave me alone in this confusion. Handing over everything weighing on me to Him may not be an instant fix, but it does lighten the load. After all, He’s promised not to burden us with more than we can bear.
I admit, sometimes I overthink and stress about things way too seriously, forgetting that I’m only here for a while, and then I’m not. And these worries that seem so huge now? A year from today, they’ll likely be nothing more than a small blip in the past.
Life keeps moving, whether I’m stressing or not.
So why don’t I let them go, even for a few hours, instead of carrying them around like a weight I have to bear alone?
It’s okay to take a breath. I have to trust the world isn’t going to fall apart if I stop worrying. What’s meant to be will be, and no midnight worrying session is going to change that.
Sometimes, the best thing I can do is rest. Tomorrow is a new day, and I’ll face whatever comes then.
Maybe giving it to God really does mean letting go a little — carrying the weight without making it feel like the end of the world. Trusting there’s a bigger picture that I don’t have to fully understand right now.
I don’t have all the answers, but I trust it’s not all on me. These problems, stresses, and anxieties may feel overwhelming, but my God is greater.
So tonight, I’m shutting down all the what ifs and should haves. I’ll believe that tomorrow, I’ll find the strength I need. For now, I’m letting myself off the hook.
Let me just close my eyes, give it all to God, and get some sleep.
